On Tuesday evening I went to let my dogs in and nocited that my little dog "Kobe" did not come in so I told my husband and we started looking and could not find him . I was very sad we have had this dog for a long time but my hubby was "well serves him right for getting out all the time"

Anyway the next day as soon as the pound opened I called to report that I was missing a dog. They said that they believed that they had my dog but it was going to cost me $50.00 to get him back. Well of course Mike is saying "leave him there" but no I go and get him after work. Now after spending the night away from home in the cat room you would think he would act like he missed us huh? Well he comes in and immediatly eats ( cause he didnt get much the day before ) and then he goes and gets in his bed in the living room just like always. So I am thinking ok things are back to normal. Each night when we go to bed he starts to whine , which really makes me mad when I am almost asleep, and then I have to put him out side for the rest of the night. AAHHHH!!!!! I love my dogs but sometimes they drive me crazy!!!!!! Maybe this is my preperation for things to come.

Hey everyone, Just thought I would let you know what's been going on in my life.
Some of you may know that I am studying to become a massage therapist,( for the second time)
Being a massage therapist is like being a nurse, its a calling , most anyone can go to school to learn this profession but only a few have the love and passion that it takes to make a really good therapist. When I was little like 5 or 6 my dad or uncles or brother in laws would get in the floor and someone would hold my hand and I would walk up and down their back. Or if anyone was in the floor I would take my hands and pretend that it was people dancing or just make up stuff to use my hands while putting lotion on the person. When I was about 12 or so my mom had a surgery on her stomach and the dr told her to rub it everyday to keep knots from forming. So everyday I would massage and put lotion on her stomach and she healed a lot faster than most people do having that type of surgery. I knew in high school that this is what I wanted to do, i have always had a passion for helping people. Massage is my way of giving back to people even if its just for an hour it helps that person to relax and get away from the troubles of the world. My short term goal for now it so do this on the side while still working full time but my long term goal is to have my own place and do massage full time. My God is much bigger than this so I am going to dream big and trust in God to lead me down the right path. If you are reading this please pray that all of the material will soak into my brain and i will be able to take the test soon Thanks everyone for listening ( like you had a choice, lol)

Well as I said before I am not good at this and I should not own a camera since I never use the thing. But this is what I have been doing lately.

For those of you who I went to school with most of you know that I always wanted to be a"moose" no a masseuse. Well in august after we graduated I went to a massage school in Little Rock and received a license. This was in august of 1993. I graduated in December of 1993 and in January of 1994 I got married. So as you can see I was rather busy that year. I was a newlywed and at that time there wasnt a huge demand for massage therapist t in Russellville. I started out in the nursery of the fitness center. Anyway with the slow demand for a massage and the new life I had taken on trying to figure out how "love" was going to pay the bills and adoring my sweet husband I some how let my license expire and slip away. Ok fast forward 14 years. A friend of mine that had been a client of mine at that time, who does my taxes for me ask me every year when I was going to get my license back and my reply would always be the same " I would LOVE to but I just dont have the money or the time"
It would always leave an ache inside me every year. Well this year was the same except now she actually has a salon open and has an open space for a massage therapist , which makes the ache hurt that much more. I have prayed about this for a long time but the answer always seemed to be "no".........until now. This time when I prayed I asked God " ok could you please shut the door completely so I never have to think about this again or could this be my time."

Well i am happy to tell you that I have found a text book (which started out to be $300.00 and I now have one for $8.00) and all I have to do is study my heart out and take and pass the test and some other exams and I dont have to take any class hours. All of the test and forms and everything will only cost me $350.00. Which is a lot right now but I have faith that if God can get me this far He will get me to the end.

Please pray for me as this studying thing is hard and with life still going on around me I have to use every spare minute I can. Thanks again to my "friend" for your kindness and support.

God's timing is always the BEST!!!!!

Well I am not much on resolutions , mine are always the same. I just want to be a better me this year than I was last year. But this year I feel the need for change more than ever. I have been a christian ever since I was 14 years old but to put that in years, I would be like a toddler. I have recently started to grow a little, I want to be closer to God and be the kind of person he made. I have been struggling with many things over the years and one of those being my husband. We seem to have grown apart in the last few years, esp with the loss of our child and both of our moms. I had an eye opener the other day, has anyone seen the movie "Fireproof", well it is a really good movie not so much as a blockbuster but the message in it was great. How can you be close to someone and love them and show them God's love , when you dont have God's love in your heart. The person I love the most in this world I try to hurt the most. All of our fights here lately just end up with both of us saying things just to hurt the other person. Proverbs 15:1 says " A soft word turneth away wrath but a grevious word stirs up anger" I love my husband with all my heart and would not mean to hurt him on purpose. We both have changed over the past 15 years ( yes its been 15 yrs!) some good and some bad. Please pray for me and my family that we can grow closer to each other and to God. Have a Blessed Day!!!

My Christmas

Well I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas. I didnt get much in the present department but I had a great Christmas. Last Saturday we had dinner with my family, the food was awesome and we got a digital picture frame and a new scarf ( which I now am collecting) and had a good time. We did ours early so that everyone wouldn't be so rushed on Christmas day. I had several parties at work and I have cooked more in the past month than I have all year. I went to my inlaws on Christmas eve, my husband was sick so I went by myself. I really enjoy being around my inlaws, I get compliments all the time about looking like them, I was born to be in this family. We played dirty santa but everyone was to nice. On Christmas day me and my sis in law cooked a big breakfast and then we did much of nothing, which was great. We ( all my in laws) went to see Marley and Me, it was pretty good but I read the book first and everyone know that the book is always better than the movie, but it was still good. My husband and I dont do the open presents on christmas day thing, he is not much for waiting. He got his present in November and I re did my camera, I had lost the cord to it so I got a new cord and card . Then I lost it again until today and Mike found it for me. I f you know me at all I can not keep up with anything. Anyway I had a good Christmas, now its back to work tomorrow. Have a Happy New Year!!!!!

The weekend...

Well I knew I wouldnt be very good at this blogging thing but here is what I did this weekend.

I took my "little sister" skating, I havent been skating since I was a teenager. I asked her if she could skate and she proudly said "yes" which wasnt exactly correct. We both put on our skates and I stand up and get my balance and we attempt to step out on the floor. Well she is trying to hold on to me and dance to the music and I tell her " honey, please dont try and dance we can barely stand up" We finally make it one time around the rink and by that time I was very tired so we left and went to lunch. As for the rest of the weekend, my church had its christmas cantata at OakGrove and Happy Valley, I went to both and they were great. The rest of the weekend I watched Lifetime movies and did nothing...... it was great. If I dont get back on here for awhile I hope everyone has a Wonderful Christmas and may God Bless You.

Well its getting closer and closer to Christmas. I hate what christmas has become,all anyone ever talks about is what gifts to buy and gotta hurry and put the tree up. Not that those are bad things but what happened to the "Real Christmas" spending time with family and praising God for his one and only Son. Most of you know that we dont have children and this time of year is really hard on me. My husband and I both lost our moms and it is just hard for me to get in the christmas spirit of decorating. I am trying really hard this year to not be such a scrooge and enjoy the holidays. Well I didnt mean to have a pitty party but next time could someone bring coffee and snacks :) I hope everyone has a wonderful Christmas time and if you have any extra cheer sounds like I could use some ;)