Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Well I am not much on resolutions , mine are always the same. I just want to be a better me this year than I was last year. But this year I feel the need for change more than ever. I have been a christian ever since I was 14 years old but to put that in years, I would be like a toddler. I have recently started to grow a little, I want to be closer to God and be the kind of person he made. I have been struggling with many things over the years and one of those being my husband. We seem to have grown apart in the last few years, esp with the loss of our child and both of our moms. I had an eye opener the other day, has anyone seen the movie "Fireproof", well it is a really good movie not so much as a blockbuster but the message in it was great. How can you be close to someone and love them and show them God's love , when you dont have God's love in your heart. The person I love the most in this world I try to hurt the most. All of our fights here lately just end up with both of us saying things just to hurt the other person. Proverbs 15:1 says " A soft word turneth away wrath but a grevious word stirs up anger" I love my husband with all my heart and would not mean to hurt him on purpose. We both have changed over the past 15 years ( yes its been 15 yrs!) some good and some bad. Please pray for me and my family that we can grow closer to each other and to God. Have a Blessed Day!!!